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Why I Write: Every Life Has A Story

Let’s start at the very beginning: Why Write At All? « The Collaborative Writer

As of late I’ve come across some great material that got me thinking about why I write in the first place.  The article above from The Collaborative Writer gets it exactly right.  I admit it:  I am my own worst enemy.  I tend to over-think everything and spend too much time planning what I’d like to do when I really should be writing.  I.  Just.  Need.  To.  Write.  Why is that so difficult in practice?

The thing is that I truly believe everyone has a story.  No one has a perfect life.  Everyone is struggling with something and conflict is the heart of any great story.  Not only does that simple premise – everyone has a story – get to the heart of why I write, it is also the reason why I love to read.  I am drawn to biographies and autobiographies or any good plot driven by realistic conflicts dealt with by well-rounded characters.

Again, I keep going back to asking myself why it has to be so hard.  I love to create.  I know what I like to write.  I always feel more myself when I write.  Why don’t I write more?  I think we all need to ditch the excuses.

The video included below I came across as part of training for my position as a clerk.  I love the message of the video.  It is all too easy to forget that everyone is struggling with something.

Heavy Boots

I debated whether or not to write at all about 9/11.  There just doesn’t seem to be anything left to say.  I then decided to finally write about Extremely Loud And Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer, the plot of which hinges on the events of 9/11.  Unfortunately real events made it impossible to not write about 9/11.

I woke up this morning to learn that the US Ambassador to Libya, Christopher Stevens, was murdered, along with three others.  That attack, along with major protests outside the American Embassy in Egypt, makes it clear we are still at war.  All sparked by a rumor.  The thing is that no matter how hard we all try in the United States to pretend we aren’t still at war, that 9/11 didn’t change everything, there are still terrorist attacks.

Back in 2000 I studied abroad in London for a month during the summer.  Every day I used the Russell Square tube station to get around the city.  It happened to be merely blocks away from Commonwealth Hall, where we were all staying that July.  It is precisely the same tube station attacked in 2005 after it was announced London would host the 2012 Olympics.

In 2002 I spent a semester studying Spanish in Caceres, Spain, once again through Michigan State University.  Throughout that semester I made several trips via train to Madrid.  Time and time again I’d find myself in Atocha Station.  I can’t even begin to tell you how heartbroken I was when I learned it too was a target for terrorists in 2004.  I can tell you precisely where I was when I heard the news.

While I haven’t experienced the day to day anxiety of say New Yorkers in the days and weeks following the September 11th attacks or the residents of Washington, D.C. a year later during the beltway sniper shootings, terrorism did color many aspects of my college days.  To this day 9/11 seems surreal to me.  At the time I was studying abroad in Ecuador (again, Spanish).  It took weeks before some sort of normalcy returned to our routines as foreign exchange students.  We all kept expecting additional attacks back home.  I remember pleading with my Mom to tell me exactly what was going at home the evening of 9/11.  We heard so many rumors I suppose I needed some reassurance that life at home as I knew it did go on.

In Extremely Loud And Incredibly Close, the young protagonist of the story, Oskar Schell, uses the term “heavy boots” to describe any sadness or unpleasant emotion relating to losing his father Thomas Schell on 9/11.  The term just seemed so fitting for the events of that day and everything that followed.  I suppose that is the precise term for what I’m feeling today:  heavy boots.  It saddens me deeply to think of how many people across the globe have lost their lives as a result of terrorism since 1979.  Believe what you wish, but we are still very much at war.

Wars & Rumors Of Wars

Cover of "Extremely Loud and Incredibly C...

Cover of Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

Get Out Your Laptop, Open A Vein.

So, what does it mean?  It means that at times I wear my heart on my sleeve.  At times I feel so strongly about things I can’t even bring myself to write about them.  When I do finally get up the courage to write about said topics, I feel as though I’m bleeding across the page, the computer screen, so to speak.  At the same time, I need an outlet for my feelings on these subjects, as difficult as it may be.  I need to express myself. By now you may be asking yourself what topics I am referring to above.  They include, but are not limited to:

Infertility – You’d think I’d have it all figured out by now – after 20 years.  I found out about my infertility when I was 10 years old and still playing with dolls.  I’ve always wanted to be a Mom first and foremost.  To my parents’ credit, they were pretty much forced to tell me at that point.  I greatly respect the fact that they knew they had to tell me the truth.  Just when I think I’ve dealt with it and accepted all that it means, it comes flooding back into my life in unexpected ways.  I start back at square one.  I want to write a series about my personal experiences so other young women won’t make the same mistakes I made or feel alone.  I’m just not there yet.  I wish we would actually discuss infertility in relation to Turner Syndrome, but it seems almost taboo, or at least it was when I was growing up.  It angers me.  We need to treat infertility as a disease, not fertility or short stature.

Motherhood – There are a whole separate set issues surrounding Motherhood I’d love to address here.  Biology alone does not make you a Mom.

I may not be a mother – but I’m still a person | Life and style | The Guardian

Sexuality and Turner Syndrome – I’ve tried to discuss these issues in the past here, but there is so much left unsaid.  Again, I don’t want young women with Turner Syndrome – or similar issues – to feel alone.  It doesn’t help that the medical profession doesn’t always get it right or that there is still so much wrong information out there.

Turner Syndrome and Sex | Ramblings of a Misguided Blonde

Reproductive Rights – The entire conversation around reproductive rights going on today absolutely disgust me.  While we shouldn’t be telling anyone what to do with their bodies, there are boundaries and we as a society need to support families – Moms, Dads, and kids.  Why can’t we respect each other and face the fact that not everyone can create a family easily?

Marriage – To marry or not to marry, that is the question.  I haven’t answered that just yet.  I love the idea of marrying Brian.  I just don’t like all of the questions and nosiness that comes with it.  And then there is religion…

Why Do You Ask? | Ramblings of a Misguided Blonde

Religion – I have so many issues with organized religion that I’m unsure of exactly what I believe anymore.  The entire situation surrounding the conversation on reproductive rights has done nothing to resolve anything.  It has only served to portray the Catholic Church in a harsh light.  How am I supposed to support any organized religion when they appear so unsympathetic to anyone who doesn’t fit the mold?  The article below is a perfect example.

Pope Says Couples Who Conceive Through In-Vitro Fertilization Are Guilty Of Arrogance | RH Reality Check

Under The Radar Michigan: Episode 210 “I’m All Thumbs”

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Bay City, looking East from Veterans Memorial Park. Bay City, Michigan at dusk. Bay City, Michigan. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Episode 210

Ok, my adopted hometown of Bay City is highlighted on this recent episode of Under The Radar.  Check it out.  Pretty interesting stuff, especially if you don’t know a whole lot about Michigan.

If I’ve said it once, I’ve said it a thousand times.  Bay City has so much damn potential.  It all comes down to one thing:  JOBS.  Anyway, I’ll get off my soapbox now.  Enjoy the episode!  Oh, and this is pretty sweet too.

Mid-Michigan’s Own

I’ve been working on this feature for Ramblings of a Misguided Blonde for a while now.  Today I’m proud to announce a new series of interviews with local artists, musicians, writers, and entrepreneurs.  As you may well know, Michigan, and mid-Michigan – otherwise known as the Great Lakes Bay region – especially, hasn’t fared well economically over the last decade or so.  This is my small way of trying to showcase all the homegrown talent in the region.  If you are interested in being featured, please contact me at lindsey.j.russell@gmail.com.

For the first installment I’m proud to feature an e-mail interview with local musician and radio personality Bob Hughes.  Much more to come!

There Are No Words

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Not dead, surrah… « The Anchoress

Fortunately the Anchoress is still among the living.  I don’t mean to make light of her current suffering, but the post is funny at points.  Unfortunately it would be much funnier if it weren’t so true.  She pretty states that she can’t take the current media spin on current events.  Well, I can’t either.  I’m disgusted.  It angers me deeply.  I desperately need to find an outlet for all of this bottled up anger.  Now.

What gets me most is just how short-sighted and naïve people can be.  Politicians, as always, play to the lowest common denominator.  At one point we had a supposedly impartial media that at least attempted to provide people with some semblance of the truth.  Of course, in the United States, in 2012, that is long gone.  I’m left wondering what I can believe in at this point.  It certainly isn’t the economic system or our narcissistic culture.  When my ancestors sought to create the life they wanted in freedom, they moved to the United States.  Where am I supposed to turn?

The Hunger Games Trilogy: May The Odds Be Ever In Your Favor

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After Christmas I read The Hunger Games Trilogy by Suzanne Collins.  I can’t remember the last time I fell so in love with a series of books.  While I don’t normally trend towards the best-seller list, I can understand completely why all three books in the trilogy currently top it currently.  They are simply that good.  There is no way I could have waited for the last two books in the trilogy.  I’m just glad that I read the entire trilogy as a whole.

Where do I even begin?  The entire premise of the books is eerie, the characters are rich and wonderful, and the political undertones of the book struck a nerve, at least with me.  I’m not sure if Suzanne Collins intended for the books to have a political message, but they do for me.  It is hard for me to believe the books are considered young adult.  They are so rich, so complex, and so intense; it is not what one would normally expect from the young adult genre.

I will delve into greater details, including my favorite characters, at a later date.  This is a subject I intended to revisit from time to time.  There are just too many themes to explore.  In the meantime, I can’t wait for the movie!  My brother’s girlfriend K and I have a date to see it.  I cannot wait!  I don’t think I’ve ever been so excited for a movie premiere.

My Life In Pop Culture

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My Life In Pop Culture | Ramblings of a Misguided Blonde

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Somehow a simple idea I’ve had forever expanded into an interesting new feature on my blog.  As you can see above, I’m making use of the page feature here at WordPress.  I recently wrote about how much I love writing about memories I associated with songs on the now defunct JamsBio.  I thought I’d resurrect the tradition on my blog.  Before I even started it suddenly hit me.  Why should I limit myself to music?  There are plenty of books, movies, and TV shows I love too.  They inspire me just as much as music.  The happy result is the new feature My Life In Pop Culture.  Enjoy.  I’m even going to include a few artists that inspire me.

Ten Long Years …

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Ten years ago began one of the best, if not the most inspiring, years of my life thus far.  2002 still conjures up such a mess of emotions and memory, almost all wonderful.  It began interestingly enough.  A few days into the new year I flew to Cáceres, Spain to begin a semester long study abroad program at la Universidad de Extremadura.  I will always have endless memories of Spain, but things did not start out as planned.

As with any year, I began 2002 cleaning up the mistakes, missteps, and crises of 2001.  At 21, it all involved the men in my life at the time.  It also involved my semester long study abroad program in Quito, Ecuador and the aftermath of September 11, 2001.  What’s important to note here is not the assortment of men in my life or specific details of what happened in my life as a result of 9/11 but the simple fact that I was emotionally drained from another banner year in my life:  2001.

Throughout my first few weeks in Spain, I really didn’t know what to do with myself.  I just needed space to figure out what I wanted out of life.  Ten years later and I am still trying to figure out the details.  Fortunately it didn’t take long for me to fall in love with Spain and my classes, especially my class in art history.  I spent every long weekend of the program traveling to new destinations in Spain and eventually Portugal.  I visited Madrid, Sevilla, Málaga and la Costa del Sol, Toledo, Salamanca, Ronda, Granada, Barcelona, and Lisboa.  I’m grateful for the foresight of the professors of the program.  If it hadn’t been for the long weekends, I would not have had the opportunity to truly explore Spain.  It inspired me in countless ways to visit every week the very works we studied in class.  Somewhere along the way I began to truly enjoy myself and flourished.  Little did I know then that the best was yet to come.

One of my last days in Cáceres a package arrived at my front door holding the key to yet more adventure.  It contained the agreement for my position as a co-op with Applied Materials in Austin, Texas.  I had planned the entire experience nearly two years before as an undergraduate business student at Michigan State.  At that time I was determined to land an internship at the end of my sophomore year.  I did.  In fact, I ended up landing an internship with IBM throughout the summer of 2001.  Applied Materials also wanted me as a co-op that year.  By that time I knew that I wanted to spend an entire year abroad.  I simply asked the hiring manager at Applied Materials if I could work as a co-op the following year.  He said yes.  After spending a summer in Rochester, Minnesota working for IBM, completing a semester long study abroad program in Quito, Ecuador, completing another semester in Cáceres, Spain, I was about to spend six months living and working in Austin, Texas.

In fact, I only had a month to prepare for my new job in Austin after arriving home from Spain.  I arrived in Michigan the first week in May and my first day of work in Austin was slated for mid-June.  I couldn’t wait.  As eager as I was to get back to MSU to complete my degree, I knew that working for Applied Materials was an experience I couldn’t pass up.  I’d finally get a true taste of life after college; it would not be just another summer job.  I wouldn’t return to Michigan State until January 2003 after traveling the globe for 18 months.

How do I even begin to describe my six months in Austin, Texas?  I truly fell in love.  I fell in love with the city itself and Texas as a whole.  In fact, I fell in love with the very idea of Texas.  Texas truly is like a whole other country.  In fact, I later drove across a good share of it on my way home from Austin, heartbroken.

The strange thing is that the entire experience didn’t start out well at all.  I loved working for Applied, but wasn’t happy with the apartment I sublet.  After only being in Austin for a month and a half, I found myself in a bad car accident on my way to work, my car totaled and my big toe broken.  At 21, I was lucky to be alive.  As I adjusted to the leg splint and put things back together, something amazing happened.

When I first arrived in Austin I befriended a new coworker who happened to be going through the two week orientation training session with me.  She and I became fast friends.  She became bound and determined to fix me up with one of her old coworkers at Motorola.  Andy.  Over those first weeks in Austin, my friend told me a lot about him, but he never seemed to be home.  In fact, I wouldn’t get to meet him for nearly a month due to his trip to Perú.  I almost forgot about him by the time a blind date was arranged.

Looking back, what a strange set of circumstances under which I met Andy.  We met just as I was literally getting back on my feet after the accident.  Instead of a leg splint that took up half of my leg, I finally had a walking cast.  Andy suggested that we go to Flipnotics to check out a local act.  Here’s the thing about Flipnotics:  it is a two-story building with a trendy shop taking up the entire first floor with a bar taking up the second.  In order for us to check out the band and hang out at the bar, I had to walk up a large flight of stairs in a walking cast.  Andy appeared mortified.  I didn’t care; I was embarrassed myself.  There was no way I was going to let a silly situation ruin my night.

We spent the night drinking beer, talking about all we had in common, which was a lot, and enjoying the act Andy hoped to book on his radio show, ATX Live.  To this day Andy is one of the most interesting men I’ve ever met.  By day an engineer, by night a DJ at a co-op radio station.  At the time he still hosted ATX live; he later became president of the co-op radio station.  It was through him that I began to enjoy myself in Austin.

We never had a romantic relationship, but we did become very good friends.  He soon introduced me to his manager and friend Cheryl.  She became one of the best friends I’ve ever had.  If I saw her today I have no doubt we could just start up again right where we left off.  Not many men can introduce you to a new good friend; Andy did.  That’s the thing about Andy and Cheryl:  they got me.  We spent hours checking out new bands, solo artists, etc.  We attended the very first Austin City Limits festival together.  Cheryl and I were there when Andy’s RK surgery to correct his vision went terribly wrong.  After he recovered his sight, we threw him a “dressed to be seen”/Halloween/late birthday party at his house that became legendary among us.  After all of my years of not fitting in high school and being mostly a loner in a college, I finally had a great group of friends that I truly loved.

After the accident I had to move almost immediately.  It turned out that my sublet was only through the summer.  I panicked.  Fortunately, through Applied Materials internal classifieds system, I found a great place to live.  Karen became another great friend in Austin.  She had just built her home before the stock market plummeted and wanted to test out the idea of a renter.  We became fast friends, bonding over Beatles music.  I loved living in her house.  It felt as though I was living with one of my favorite aunts for three months, and I enjoyed every minute of it.  As my return to Michigan loomed, we hosted a combination goodbye/birthday/Christmas party for me.  I did not want to go home.

I’ll never forget leaving Austin on that foggy morning in mid-December.  I cried.  I had never felt my life come so completely together as it did in Austin.  I wanted to stay, but I felt that I had to go back to MSU to complete my degree.  I always planned to return.  I still miss the people, the music, and the fun.  It didn’t quite work out that way I planned.  Despite my best intention and efforts, I never did get a job in Austin after graduation.

I’m not sure why I am looking back to 2002 now other than to say that it is time to move on.  I loved my life in Austin.  For whatever reason, I haven’t been able to recreate that deep sense of happiness in Bay City.  I need to figure out what I need to be truly happy and go after it.  Life is too damn short to be miserable.  There will always be a part of me that will treasure all of those experiences I had in 2001 and 2002.  There are days when I just look in the mirror and wonder what happened to the girl who risked everything for adventure.

Blake Shelton – Austin

Songwriters:  David Kent, Kirsti Manna

She left without leavin’ a number
Said she needed to clear her mind
He figured she’d gone back to Austin
‘Cause she talked about it all the time
It was almost a year before she called him up
Three rings and an answering machine is what she got

If you’re callin’ ’bout the car I sold it
If this is Tuesday night, I’m bowling
If you’ve got somethin’ to sell
You’re wastin’ your time, I’m not buyin’
If it’s anybody else, wait for the tone, you know what to do
And P.S. if this is Austin, I still love you

The telephone fell to the counter
She heard but she couldn’t believe
What kind of man would hang on that long
What kind of love that must be
She waited three days and then she tried again
She didn’t know what she’d say but she heard three rings and then

If it’s Friday night I’m at the ballgame
And first thing Saturday, if it don’t rain
I’m headed out to the lake
And I’ll be gone all weekend long
But I’ll call you back when I get home on Sunday afternoon
And P.S. if this is Austin, I still love you

Well, this time she left her number
But not another word
Then she waited by the phone on Sunday evenin’
And this is what he heard

If you’re callin’ ’bout my heart
It’s still yours
I should’ve listened to it a little more
Then it wouldn’t have taken me so long to know where I belong
And by the way, boy, this is no machine you’re talkin’ to
Can’t you tell, this is Austin and I still love you

I still love you.

Technological Mix And Match: When Will It End?

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Happy Birthday, Television: 26 Essential Connected TV Resources

Final chapter for Hugh Grant’s Notting Hill travel bookstore in London – USATODAY.com

A couple of articles caught my attention this evening.  Let’s start with TV.  September 7, 1927 saw the birth of television.  As a birthday gift, Mashable put together a guide for today’s connected TV watchers.  One item in particular caught my attention.  Netflix is in the process of creating its own series, à la HBO.  Interesting development!

The last articles concerns an all too frequent occurrence, the closing of yet another bookstore.  The only reason it made the news is due to its part in the movie Notting Hill.  It saddens me.  I love book stores, and of course, books.  I always envisioned myself owning a bookstore one day.  I just hope that there is still a viable market for true books for the foreseeable future.

But where does it end?  With more people adopting smart phones, iPads, and eReaders every day, and buying more eBooks as a result, it may come to a point where it doesn’t make much economic sense to publish as many traditional books.

It will be interesting to see how all of this technology plays out.  I just hope that we don’t lose what works now.  I love the feel of an actual book.  I love the texture and the weight.  No new technology can replace it.  Nor can it replace the feeling of losing oneself amongst shelves upon shelves of interesting books in a cozy bookstore.  At least there will always be libraries; I hope!